was very young, practically a kid when I met you through my father. And despite this connection, I do not like that first time. Then I got the proposal to link with you, that surprised me. Since the family was told about insisting that you have a good life and stable, something that many people these days (too) can not achieve. As I have always considered it well born to be grateful, and we always have to listen to opinions and arguments of others, they all have something to learn, I accepted the proposal. And the truth is that during those first few summers we share, as I prepared to be with you, yes I had the feeling that really so get a life easy and comfortable, and that made me think I was on track.
When it came time to decide, many dreams and hopes were dashed, and it was like a small representation of hell on Earth. Terrible situations, great fears, dreams, insecurities ... and above all, disillusionment. Everything suddenly appeared. I concluded that the personal qualities most needed for survival were precisely those which most lacked.
So, my life was painted gray. It was true that he had a bad life, probably quite the opposite. At last, after all, did not pass any kind of material needs, something not everyone can say today.
At one point we took a short break of a year, coinciding with duties that I had to meet and where I got involved willingly, trying to get something changed in my life, at least for a year. Around you was encouraging, we had a good season for several months. When it was cut short, surprisingly, became the worst of times, the worst predictions, absolute despair. There was even a time when I searched desperately for an escape, and found in Geneva, Switzerland. But that did not materialize, because when everything was ready, I realized that that was not nice story intention of becoming anything serious or lasting. And let me clear that there is no room for testing. And the family also made it clear to me, upon the first major medical setback that took my father, warning of their delicate health situation would be conditional and the rest of his life.
I have to admit, though, that much is what I have taught at almost every level of life. From what the reality of the world, representing the living and dealing with others, the direction in which a life can take if you get carried away by the inertia and the current ...
is curious that until you have taught me that there are mistakes that should not to repeat. And even at the level of my relationships I had a couple personal exquisite care not to choose looking for an easy and comfortable life. The truth is that, although the outcome is totally different principle, the practical result is very similar: in both cases I am where I do not want to be.
have returned the times of peace. The time with you today is comfortable and easy, and can say that I've finally gotten that comfortable life he promised. The downside is that sometimes I ask a little more love ... If you know that I can give!
There are even days when we dream that a good deal ... and then I feel that I shudder inside, that something has not died yet, that is impossible are still possible ... and I can not tell anyone what they try to fool me with difficult choice. And no, do not worry, I will not give your name, MB
